Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Pay it Forward

Sharing the following story at the request of my dear friend, Jenny, one of the most generous and selfless people I know on behalf of her friend, Anna Marie.  I am quoting the following from a Go Fund Me page and I am quite sure that this story will touch your heart as it did mine.

"On February 19th, 2014, my mom Constancia Cruz collapsed in Seoul International Airport while waiting for a flight home from the Philippines to California. She was immediately rushed to the local hospital and diagnosed with septic shock, a serious condition that severely impacted her vital organs. 

Her husband and my father, Pedro, headed to Korea to be with his beloved wife of nearly 50 years, and my 5 siblings and I also traveled to be by her side. Multiple treatments were administered - including cardiac bypass surgery, hemodialysis, and respiratory support. But after 76 arduous days in Intensive Care, our mother's health continued to deteriorate. And on April 28th at 2:19 pm, surrounded by my father and 2 siblings, she took her last breath.

Even with medical insurance coverage, nothing could have prepared our family for complications of international emergency care. After already paying $90,000 up front, of which only a fraction will be reimbursed, we still have to pay $157,000 to bring her body back home to the United States. We have contacted the U.S. Embassy, who told us they cannot help. In fact, numerous families have faced a similar scenario and were left no option but to leave their loved ones in foreign hospitals. 

We don't want this for my mom. As you can imagine, knowing she is at her desired final resting place would bring us closure and peace of mind.

To claim my mother's remains from the hospital, we have set a goal to raise $157,000, which is what we need to cover the bill. Audacious goal? Maybe. But one of the things I've learned from this experience is that people are truly kind and generous. We have felt the outpouring of love and support in so many ways. And it's in that spirit that I ask for your help. Even if you cannot make a donation, you can spread the word. Help bring our mom "home" this Mother's Day. 

With sincerest appreciation and thanks,

-Anna Marie on behalf of our family (Pedro, Andrea, Allan, Adrian, Amabelle, Amanda)"

If you have the means to assist, please consider it.  Even if you cannot afford to, just spreading the word and sharing this family's touching story will help.

Thank you!!

Here's the link where you can help:

Friday, April 25, 2014


The intensity
of joy
earned not found
cannot be measured
by any means
known to man
but can be felt
more deeply
than anyone
could imagine
at least
by me.

Thursday, April 24, 2014


Dear friend
the one I never knew
I was missing
thank you
for listening
without judgment
or reprimand
for clearing
the fog
and quieting
the noise
for knowing
exactly who I was
even when
I did not
and for holding
my hand and heart
and returning them

(My blog is four years old, today. Thanks for taking the ride with me.)

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

More, Please

Unspeakable beauty
somehow penetrates
my once dark soul
breaching borders
breaking boundaries
after all these years
and I shall not question
but rather beckon
much more
of the same.

Monday, April 21, 2014


to see myself
through my own eyes
by the filter
of your opinion
and in spite 
of my illness
and its devious lies
with the clarity
born of ceaseless strength
and indefatigable hope.


You never cease
to astound
dancing through life
not unwise
but unburdened
by your dark memories.
How can you be
so brave
the way you
save yourself
from the perils
of uncontrollable
Your spark
a fire
to which
I aspire
as I make my way
through each day
a battle to be won.

Friday, April 11, 2014


You know
that ache
the one you
in the pit
of your soul
that says
you are not
Ignore it
because no one
is ever enough
until they stop
to be

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Letting Go

It's okay
if you don't love me
my life does not
depend on you.
It's okay
if you don't need me
for I know
that others do.
I've no ill will
toward any being
my hope is strong
my aim is true.
Follow your heart
upon your journey
and always know
that I will, too.


Ebb and flow
time and tide
life's a karmic
mystery ride.
Rise and fall
yin and yang
reach an end
begin again.
Lost and found
here and there
magic exists

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


What must it be like
to dance
on the sand
of the world
with foamy water
tickling your toes
and moonlight
guiding your path
your only music
the rhythm
of your own heart.

What must it be like
to just be.

Monday, April 7, 2014


Is it better
to never
occupy a space
or to know
how beautiful it feels
when it is full
and risk it
becoming emptier
than you ever
could have imagined?


The veil
has been lifted.
The fog
is now clear.
Every second
brought me here.
Doubts may linger
likewise fear
but bliss
at last
feels oh so near.


Countless stories
yet untold
endless beauties
to behold
when gentle arms
do enfold
a wounded heart
not yet cold.

Sunday, April 6, 2014


Behind those eyes
lives a vibrant mind
over a fragile heart.
Smart enough
to know better
hopeful enough
not to.

Friday, April 4, 2014


Melancholy baby
all too familiar
with tears
spread your wings
and know
that you
are so much more
than this.


My words
are the soul music
of an untethered
and an unquiet


If I was
in your eyes
would my life
be perfect
or am I
better off
being beautiful
only to me?

Friday Music

on air
my companions
on this ordinary
of my life.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014


My mind is sharp
my heart is strong
and through it all
I sing my song.
you might
sing along.